Patience equals Results

My rollercoaster of a life feels like it's settling down a little. (knock on wood).  I got the results back for M and he was diagnosed with ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity disorder) and ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder).  As my sister says he has every letter of the alphabet, ha ha..  We have started to take Adderall.  I did a lot of reading up on this, and had a long discussion, many discussions with the hubby.  I believe that we made the right choice.  The first day on medication he got his first excellent day of the school year and since then many good days. NO bad days at school.  His teacher who was not on board at first has even commented that he is doing so well and sees a huge difference in his focus.

I do have to remind myself that this is not a miracle cure.  He still is going  to be attending behavioral therapy and even though he is on medication he does have bad days sometimes.  We have been blessed however that he is not having any side effects.

I have to be honest and say that understanding what was and is going on with M has been difficult.  I don't regret the choice that I made of adopting my babies, I know that they are a blessing to me and I couldn't imagine life without them.  It wasn't anger that I felt when I realized that M needed help, I best can describe it as fustration. Frustration that I have one with Aspergers and another with ADHD. I wanted to yell at the Lord "ANYTHING ELSE!" I may have actually yelled that. I cried out of fustration. However, we are working through it.

With all that is going on with M and homeschooling S this year, I decided to stop working part-time. I was only working two days a week to keep some of my own idenity. I loved teaching, and to be honest I'm really good at it.  Homeschooling a child and one that questions the whole world constantly is like having a toddler 24/7 with you.  I need to try to take the two days that she goes to school and breathe a little.  

The funny part is that since I love CHAOS though I decided to take on the position of PTC president.  I was nominated without really asking to be, and decided to accept.  Parents that have a little more in their life than others are just made differently I guess.

I felt very much in my bubble lately with everything and was struggling to see God's presence in all this.   Sadly an old friend of mine suffered a loss and it helped me to see God in so many ways than what I was viewing him as.  If you have a chance check out their story.



Life is all over the place.  It's hard to see the light sometimes, we just need to hold on a little longer.