Who knows?

Sometimes I just don't know what to say. I think maybe I should start my life with an almost AA/NA type of feel "Hello my name is Isabel and I am a ______ (sinner, mother, selfish, etc....). " My life is full of so much to tell and I don't know half the words to explain it. When I do take time to share people usually say "You should write a book." , "How do you do it?" the thing is though is that I really don't share. That is why I thought of restarting this writing thing. I know people will read it so I still am guarding my hearts but, there is that part of me that is saying - LET IT GOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! So I guess I will try some baby steps with things that you may not have known about me.

1. I am a mother of four

2. We are in the process of fully adopting M and S.

3. My children are 7, 6, 4 and 3.

4. I am a fighter, in all things

5. I could do none of this without my God.

6. S has special needs, that we are still figuring out. Maybe she does? Maybe she doesn't?

7. I don't know what to do sometimes and have to fight going into my own bubble. I never do give into it or give up.

8. I still don't know what to call S special needs they diagnosed it as PDD-NOS (Pervasive Development disorder-none otherwise specified) since they didn't want to call it ASPERGERS or then again they don't know if it's Trauma induced.

9. I do accept it, I don't accept it. I HATE LABELS.

10. I love my children each one of them no different from the next.

11. I would have none of this without my husband's support and guidance.

12. Sometimes I just want to cry for how unfair the world is. A lot of times I do.

13. I am so mad at our system for the hole that it has for the lost children in the world.

14. I believe in nurture not nature.

............... I could go on and on. I was blabbing but hopefully listing it this way will help me to accept my daughters needs and the ups and downs that come with it. I wish I could give this to those people that wonder, question and stare at my parenting. Don't judge a parent by their child you never know what is inside.