Dear S

Today was quite a day. This was the last day of school before summer break for EVERYONE!  S had her kinder promotion to 1st grade and J had a little classroom celebration for the last day as he moves into 2nd grade.  This year is by no mean over but on to another step they go in life.

Last night was an emotional one for S.  She had a play date earlier in the day so by the time I got her after school she was WIPED OUT!! Her nonsense started early.  It ended with us giving each other hugs her talking about certain noises that bother her (brother was humming loudly).  I told her that in a couple of days she is going to go speak to lady who is going to ask her different questions.  She asked if it was about her being a part of our family.  I told her no it's just to see how her brain works.  This conversation stopped their for her brain but moved into her being a part of our family FOREVER!! I told her I love her very much and am so happy to be her mommy.  She never asks about her old mom.  She did ask last night about how old she was when she saw her last.  I told her almost two years ago.

So as I sat in the auditorium today and watched her sing her heart out, dance in the aisle and receive her certificate.  I couldn't help but cry.  I thought "Lord why me?" My heart was proud but yet saddened to know that someone else could have been sitting here but they gave it up.

Dear S,
I am so proud of you.  I am more then amazed at the little girl that you are.  When God made you He created you with a little extra love and braveness added in.  How much you have grown since you were four.  I can't even picture that little girl that you once were when you came to live with me.  Your learning level was very low you didn't know animal sounds, colors, simple vocabulary but LOOK at you now!!! Your AMAZING you know how to read BIG BOOKS, your writing is suburb, your heart is full of kindness and love and you always want to help someone they seem like they need it.  I don't know where your "old mommy is".  But I do know that wherever she is at she is proud of you!! How you can you not be??  You've played sports, learned how to ride your bike and your learning more everyday.  That shy, timid child that you once were is gone.  Your eyes shine so bright, your smile warms the heart of anyone that is blessed to see it.  So today as any day I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!  Even though you are only moving into 1st this has been a long year for you.  I am blessed to call you my baby, to see you look for me in a crowd, to see you smile and yell for me.  I am blessed to call you mine.  You have so much strength in you, that is still undiscovered.  YOU WILL MOVE MOUNTAINS because you already have.  No matter if someone says you can't you will always find a way.  I LOVE YOU BABY and congrats!! Love mommy