WHAT WAS I THINKING?!

I don't like to compare my life to others but seriously - WHAT was I  THINKING?! I started homeschooling S this last week, and began remodeling our new/old house.  We are moving to a spot that we have owned in a couple of weeks and I just started homeschooling.. In the midst of deciding curriculum, creating homeschool schedule, I am picking out cabinets, flooring and paint.  Anything else that I can add in my little stew of CHAOS?!  This is not a stew that I would suggest anyone to eat!

A good note, is that even though we haven't officially started teaching, since it takes time to receive the curriculum, S seems to be enjoying the time together.  We haven't had an anxiety fit (knock on wood) and we are showing more affection to dad and I.  It also helps me to be able to show this affection as well since I'm not frustrated.

J seems to have started the official beginnings of puberty meaning he is starting to smell and HELLO DEODORANT!!  I realized this while trying to figure out why my car smelled like a wet dog. He thought if he used body spray we wouldn't be able to tell but then he smelled like a wet dog with body spray.  I showed him tonight how to use the deodorant his question "Do I put in on over my clothes?" The mood swings also, OH LORD save me from the MOOD SWINGS!

One more good ingredient.. to add to my stew I started a 90 day challenge on Body by VI. I am on day 31.  I changed my eating habits 8 months ago to what you would describe as a pescatrain (is that even a word?) to only eating fish and no other meats.  The Body by VI is a nutritional protein shake, that helps you gain muscle or loss weight (your choice) I'm doing a little of both.  It's helping me to exercise daily by increasing my energy with vitamins (in shake) no additional supplements.  And yes I decided to be a promotor (ifranke.myvi.net).  So that in a way is just a little more added to my stew!!

While school is starting tomorrow for all.  Pray for my patience, endurance, to make sure I complete our packing my this weekend.  J has a soccer team tryout so pray he makes it and ..... just that I stay focused.

Take care....

Update

How do I sum up a year? So many changes..... We stopped therapies for S. I felt like she was associating too much of her identity with it.  We don't have a diagnosis however, therapy helped us a lot but there are some things that we need to just accept as her personality.  She started music classes and soccer and love's it!

J , M and K have been busy with sports and school. I started back to work as a preschool teacher and went back  too college, CRAZY right?! I love it though, love stepping out of my mom role and being validated for what I do.  Now that I've accepted four kids in school, college and work BAM!! Life is changing yet again!

We've thought about homeschooling S for a long time.  We've been on school break for awhile and S's anxiety has been under control 😅. Yes we have our moments but it seems manageable compared to a full out break down.  In my heart homeschooling option won't disappear so here we go on yet another new journey.

I keep being reminded that my role in life is mommy not who I want to be separate of that. God blessed is with each of our kids for a reason, sometimes they don't know how to use their voice and it's our purpose to help them. I pray this is the right choice for all the family. The emotional fits were taking its toll finally on all.

I still get too work but instead of 5 days 2 and yet I'm selfishly morning my/our changes. Wish us the best!